My Story
I grew up thinking work hard, play hard was a good way to live. I moved up from my job as a highschool teacher to management roles and big responsibilities, while living wild weekends of travel and party chaos in Australia, the UK and Spain. On some level I knew I wanted things to be different, but at that point, I was unable to really help. myself; and also, I found my external chaos fun and exciting - even though for my inner state, it wasn't good. 

I had hoped I would be married and settled by 30 - and although dating like a maniac, this came and past. My Dad who I was very close with had serious health issues all his life and then severe dementia. After 12 years of it's progression, I moved back to Australia and was his carer at the end of his life. My family situation wasn't great with the others,  and all of these situations compounding on me, I felt like there was nothing I could do, and this sent me into further internal chaos. 

I used work as my anchor and this led me to burnout TWICE! It was the area I had the most self confidence in, as I was seriously lacking it in other areas of my life. After being made redundant from my dream job in Ibiza, I took time out to slow travel and this led me to living in a tiny town in India, where my personal journey to sorting out my inner chaos really started to deepen.
 
In my personal life I majorly lacked self discipline in the name of fun, but over time this led to poor self belief and a lack of self trust, self esteem and self love to hold personal boundaries and make good longer term choices for myself. That version of me was doing the best she should at that time- but my subconscious was a distater and running my life (it does this for all of us), and I was thoroughly mentally punishing myself when things would go wrong, even though a lot of that was partly my own doing. I kept myself busy to avoid the inner chaos of being alone with myself. Yet amongst all  this, from the age of 24 onwards I had a deep, unshakeable feeling that I wanted to learn meditation. Back then it wasn't all about mental health - it was a niche hobby - no one really was doing it, and that was cool. Not really realising I was on this path of inner work, I kept going, even though it felt like I couldn't do meditation properly for years... YEARS!

I started learning traditional styles of meditation, annually through monks in Asia and then practicing at the London Buddhist Centre in between. Back then, there were no apps or jazzy programs to teach you more easily, so four years in, I finally realised that I had been doing it right this whole time... and then I like everything else, I did it to the extreme. Meditation feels amazing, and when you come out of your session, you feel better, and then everyting in your life starts going better - it is like a magic pill to sort your life out, that is actually good for you. The only problem was I became addicted to meditation, in a way where I was hacking deep, deep meditation chasing the highs. The positives of this was I explored with absolute openness, many styles looking for best that had the most tangible impact for my anxious, ADHD brain and life. This encouraged me to find other ways to access the state of deep meditation I knew how to reach, in ways that allowed me to flow more naturally. It helped me understand how the different styles do different things with your body and you can use mediation like a medicine, you can prescribe it for it's positive effects. 

10 years ago I came across breathwork, and the next year I started doing Osho Active Meditations and this literally changed my life. I was able to regulate my nervous system, by allowing the carthasis for all the things my meditation from all these years had made me aware of. Better out than in is 100% true. From that new regulated place of mental and emotional balance, I then was able to really successfully separate myself from the limiting beliefs that up to that point were defining who I thought I was, and the edges of my life. Over time I changed the negative subconscious patterns I had, to be more positive and I started living more confidently from a place where I believed what I wanted in life was possible for me, and that I did deserve good things. This totally changed the trajectory of my life. 

I now live on the Ganga in Rishikesh in India, and in my personal practice I learn secret methods from very strict Saddhus who I have become close with over time. In my work I service people all around the world via online, and I hold and collaborate on retreats in this unique energy field of Rishikesh and specific surrounding energy zones of the Himalayas. I don't think I am here by luck or chance. This is the result of many years of shifting the needle of my internal state to feel better - which initially is the ultimate goal of medtation. You vibrationally attract what you are and what the stories running in your head deeply believe to be true.
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The methods I use in my work are the techniques I used to help myself heal, or other practices of the same style - which I know how to apply from training in and deeply practicing myself.  I practice what I preach and I love to share what I have found to be the best and most potent routes for embodied transformation, having been through the trial and error process myself for nearly two decades. 

Today, my joy, my love for myself and others comes from a bottomless well of inner connection, empathy and awareness. I hope to bring everyone I work with closer to this expansion of self too. 

I have trained in traditional pranayama with Yogalap, I am an advanced instructor studying to become a Master with SOMA Breath, and I am a trained facilitator in OSHO Active Meditations, qualifying in Pune, India - where I am a continuing facilitator at the OSHO International Meditation Resort. Achieving this was the biggest personal goal I had set for my career - now my focus is to help others with what I know. I have participated in the Health Optimisation Summit in London twice as part of the Soma Breath team, so I have a good understanding of the latest advancements in bio-hacking technology and and wellness support,
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I work with both groups and individuals, and have listed some of the more niche areas below to give you an insight into my work. 
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*Nervous system regulation *Corporate wellness *Health issues, eg. Cancer, pre-op nerves, end of life, dementia. *Bereaved partners and children, including those affected by suicide. *Adults and youths with mental health and psychiatric conditions, including those sectioned in live-in facilities. * work in schools with somatic behaviour and mindset invention, anxiety management, including students with SEND needs, coping with exam pressure, and managing emotions.  *Working with business owners and entrepreneurs to get crystal clear on their offerings.  *Couples breathwork, to deepen connection and relationship harmony. *Assisting those going through relationship breakdown, including divorce. *Assisting Ayurvedic Nursing Colleges in India, with understanding physiological states of body coherence. *Assisting high level business people in India to find peace, balance and re-evaluate life priorities in India.  *Family breathwork to build connection, and assist parents with tangible tools to help their children. *Carers, to help process the emotions that are often needed to be held back while caring for a loved one. *Families of those effected by debilitating conditions, eg. Alzheimers and dementia, Motor Neurone Disease, etc. You don't have to do this alone.